The End of a Stupid Phase

First of all, I would like to say that I am very very regretful of what I did four months ago. I would like to apologize to you for all the treacheries I have committed. I would like to address to you my deepest apologies and I would like to prove to you how much I despise all the things that I did to you in the past. I would like to tell you, through out the sinful times, that I have been so stupid and I have been a huge coward. This is because of the fact that I managed to handle my pain by looking for a distraction that later on became destruction instead of facing it like a man and fighting in the name of love. I have learned a lot from this experience. And I am willing to prove to you that I still deserve to be on that spot where I used to be on. I regret the fact that I didn’t think of your welfare. I have made a lot mistakes in the past. I denied the fact that I still love you. I instilled in my mind that I have loved someone else. I made mountains of lies. It kills me. My lies are starting to eat my flesh, digging deeper, working its way through my bones. I despise all the foolish acts that I have done. I wish I could turn back time so that I could erase all my mistakes. But that is impossible. So the only thing that I can do today is to make up for all my mistakes. I will work hard to prove to you that I am sorry for all my wrongdoings. I never loved anyone else but you. You may be laughing at me right now, but there is one thing that I would like to guarantee. All the stupid things that occurred in the past will be wiped out with the things that I will be doing today and in the future. You will no longer feel pain and sorrow. I know it may take a long time, but it will definitely happen. The happiness that I will bring to you will be something you have never felt before- something greater and more powerful. If I fail again this time, I guess that will be the end. All I am asking right now is for you to bring back your trust. Perhaps a last drop of faith will do. I would really appreciate it. Just give me a chance to prove myself to you. Give me a chance to work things out. I know we can survive this tragic phase in our relationship. In the end, we will both look back at this and recall all the lessons learned from this experience.